I Can't Unlove You

4/28/2006

4/28/2006 09:26:00 PM

picasso is so.. irritating la. his paintings arh. so bian tai la. want to find one stupid cubism picture also very hard to find. and worse, it takes very long to load. art!!!! i swear i'm never going to take art. then other artists i also dunno got what about them. irritating! ahh.

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4/28/2006 09:13:00 PM

bloody. i can't find the thing to make the width wider. now my tagboard's really slim. it doesn't look nice like that. maybe i'll use haloscan some day. eeyer.

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4/28/2006 08:29:00 PM

decided to change my blogskin. like couldn't view it today when i went to my blog. oh well. so much for the nice blogskin from jian huan and yanping. maybe it's my computer problem that i cannot view it lah. but yeah. so school today was fine. i keep forgetting that must stay in common test venue. boo. so first period had maths. i think mr aw went up to 4th level, so we were laughing there lah. so.. yar. after that had pe. played ball. then chinese. bored. then recess. then had science, dnt, science. shan't go into detail. so yup, after that lunch-ed with cao shuang. and people, stop calling me pi, it's a hidden identity. heh.

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4/26/2006

4/26/2006 09:11:00 PM

do you know how hard it is to have to pretend nothing happened and go on with life? do you know? no. oh, so i have to show it out so that people would understand isit. i chose it to keep it to myself. smile in front of you. pretend that i'm happy with my life, blah blah. i don't want people to sympathise me so i kept it to myself. i'll rather suffer than let other people suffer okay. do you know? no. you just think i'm some arrogant kid which copies homework and does nothing good. just because i appear to be more serious and hardworking, you say something is wrong with me or that i want to win. hello. it's not all about winning. and if i appear to be slacking, you all will say i am like that one la. fuck. do you know how much i suffered because i want to get good results? i want to be in the top 40 at least okay. i want to go take triple science okay.not to win people. i want to let my parents be proud of me okay. you don't know how much i gave up la. and how miserable i am now. i hate people with sucky attitude okay. it's just getting on my nerves these few days. show your bloody attitude somemore. just one word just now can make me cry okay. make it like as if it's my fault like that. you never say properly then what you want me to do. and anne frank, i finally know how you feel already, i understand. at least you still have peter, unlike me. fuck. this bloody day just gets worse and worse.

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4/25/2006

4/25/2006 08:41:00 PM

today, well it was okay. haha. everyday's okay one la. oh well. oh oh i wanted to blog this long time ago but always forgot. heh. my poster for the earth thing was posted up at the near the general office place. haha. was pretty ugly la but it's there! haha. lalala. okay. so today, first was assembly. haha, funny la. then was science. as usual, boring. then art. my paperdoll look okay when it was in the mash bag. but it look super ugly when it was taken out! why didn't i think of using cotton? used tissue paper and it sucked. ): so after that reccess-ed. then had english. read newspaper. then geog. then history. then science again. i hate science lah. eeyer. then after that school over. went to eat with cao shuang and jieli. raining after that. hais. then went home. do art. colour maths. blah blah then here blogging. heh.

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4/24/2006

4/24/2006 02:13:00 PM

today. disaster. had english paper. total disaster. first, compo. question so hard okay. i'm not good in writing compositions and here you are giving me this type of questions la. i'm going to fail. atlast, chose question number two to write. is occasion and incident the same? aiya, should be can lah. and i want mrs koh to mark. she gives us high marks la. so after that recess. so many ppl. then after that paper 2. the summary! walao. my pen went out of ink when i was writing halfway, so i have to like write slowly so the ink would come out. in the end i didn't finish the in front question that i skipped earlier on. and in the summary i wrote 150 words, but at there when need to write how many words i wrote 100. wah. so many mistakes. and that stupid pen. aiya. die. so after that went home. going to buy another pen later. and after that study! mug mug mug.

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4/21/2006

4/21/2006 07:03:00 PM

just watched high school musical. not bad. it could've been better if they kissed la. haha. okay. so school today was okay. first was maths then pe. had the shuttle run practice. then mother tongue. had a test. i only got 38/50. boo. then recess-ed. ate alot la. like pig. haha. all because of cao shuang la. always eat, then i see alr feel hungry also. so after that was science. had a test. only one question dunno how to do. heh. then dnt. the car was going round and round la. hais. then after that was science again. then went to common test venue to arrange tables and chairs all that. but ours no need to arrange, cos is like that alr. haha. so after school had pft. damn. i did more than 6 alr okay. not fair. hais.

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4/19/2006

4/19/2006 03:56:00 PM

doing the freaking science project now. like so many days already still haven't coplete la. wtf can. so at iris' house now. nobody is like serious one lah. hais. so be it lah. just do finish my part and leave it. so yar. exams coming and i still haven't start studying. no ba wo alr. planning to go back and write the notes for geog. until chap 22 leh, so many lah. and i don't understand what mr foo is teaching lah. so school today was okay. but sad news is that my 2.4 sucked lah. worse than last year by 30 plus sec. hais. should've brought stopwatch to time myself. hais. forget it. then yar, nothing much happened. i'm still blogging now because they are still doing other things. oh wells. cme project not done yet too, tomorrow hand up! ahh. alot of things lah, later got time then blog about what i actually wanted to blog yesterday. depressing stuff lah. really want to cry yesterday. esp in english lesson. it's hard to hold back tears. my throat is so pain trying to prevent it from flowing down. and the background music in english period was so sad lah. i almost ask iris for help. but luckily, i'm able to control it. hais. and words DO hurt. experienced it myself alr. pissed off now lah. fuck.

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4/17/2006

4/17/2006 10:38:00 PM

1.what are u doing now?
doing the damn science project and decides i'll take a break by doing this(: haha.

2.what song are u listening to?
some song by jessica simpson. called i have nothing.

3.do you love anyone?
yup. (:

4.Does she/he know it?
haha, not really. heh.

5. simple or complicated?
simple.

6.In the past month have you bought something?
huh? of course. duh.

7. gotten sick?
last month? maybe. forget alr. heh.

8. been hugged?
yeah..

9. felt stupid?
sometimes? yeah.

10. talked to an ex?
haha do i even have any.

11.Missed someone?
like?

12.Failed a test?
yeah. alot. x(

13.Ate cereal?
today? nah, haven't ate for long time alr. haha yanyan they all selling.

14.Danced crazy?
no. sad thing, i can't dance. haha.

15.Gotten your hair cut?
when? haha.

16.Lied?
yup.

17.Nervous habits?
dunno.

18. can you roll your tongue?
ehh nope. tried.

19.Can you raise one eyebrow?
no. two can. haha.

20.Do you make your bed daily?
no. leave it like that lor. haa.

21.Do you think you are unique?
hmm.

22.Have you ever said "I Love you" and mean it?
maybe..

23.Given money to a homeless person?
no? haha. no money.

24.Smoked?
i hate the smell.

25.Waited all night for a phone call?
nah.

26.Snuck out?
for wad?

27.Sat and looked at the stars?
err no.

28.Do you swear?
sometimes.

29.Do you ever spit?
nopes.

30.You cook your own food?
yeah. with my mum watching. haha. she's scared that i burned down the whole house.

31.You do your own chores?
hm.

32.You like pepsi or coke?
coke. pepsi's too sweet. esp the max one. damn sweet. heh.

33.You're happy with your hair?
okay lor. can be better.

34.You own a dog?
if i promise i would clean up. haha. still no.

35.You spend your money wisely?
depends. i've just spent $2 dollars to buy that testtube thing. ehh.

36.Are you patient?
ok la.

37.Do you prefer flowers or angels?
ehh my zhu shen. heh.

38.Gray or black?
black.

39.Sunrise or sunset?
sunset.

40.staying up late or waking up late?
depends. but i like waking up late.

41.Winter or Fall?
winter! (:

42.Left or right?
is there a difference?

43.Sunshine or rain?
rain. or maybe sunshine. depends lah. in the morning i want rain, after school i want sunshine. i want yu ting. haha.

44.Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?
vanilla. i don't like chocolate. it's so chocolate-ty. haha. really.

45.Boys or girls?
boys and girls. i want both. heh.

46.Age.
13+. my birthday's 25 september. buy present hor. haha.

47.Siblings.
one little brother who just broke the backspace key on the keyboard. walao lah. now i have to use delete.

48.Height.
156 i think. last time i measured one. now you know why i want to grow taller so badly?

49.Have you ever wanted to die?
not that serious lah.

50.Have you ever thought of killing sumone?
nah. throwing darts at someone and buying voodoo doll and poke him/her, yes. haha. cruel.

51.Last relationship?
well..

52.Thought about getting married?
yup. when i was young. now.. haha. dunno if anyone wants me anot ar, still talk about marriage. haha.

53.Want to have kids?
yar. thought together with marriage one. haha. but pain arh.

54.Person you talked to on the phone?
lots. i like to talk to melody foo. heh.

55.Drink?
favourite or what? i like coke.

56.Ate?
i like alot leh. i eat almost anything that can be ate and taste nice lah.. haha.

60.Any last words?
finally. so long can. 60! ahh.

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4/15/2006

4/15/2006 04:53:00 PM

today. 2.4 km. i'm going to have muscles ache tomorrow. hais. and i have to perform! ahh. i so so so don't want to can. god. anyways, i haven't start revising yet, that's the bad thing cause exams are just like one week or so behind. i think i'm going to do badly la. no determination alr. and i'm falling sick i tell you. i know, i can sense it. oh, don't ever eat that spicy chicken from kfc. eat original. if not you'll fall sick very quickly. really. the last time i ate it i got fever. then yesterday i ate it now i'm not feeling well. maybe it's the chicken from kovan that's the problem. ah i dunno lah.

happy birthday mummy! (:

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4/14/2006

4/14/2006 04:10:00 PM

wtf. the post i just typed all gone. fine. okay. yesterday was cynthia's birthday. (: then nothing much really. and that i forgot to bring alot of things. and i thought i forgot to bring chinese textbook but in the end, it was inside my bag. hais. so dnt project's done. left with cip, cme and science. and there's no extension to science project. wth. i haven't started on revising for mid year. yes, i haven't. when i wanted to revise today, i found out that all my books are in the locker. fine. then i shall take a break today. tomorrow's 2.4 running. and mummy's birthday. (: oh, and i'm going to die out there people. no will to run fast. and sunday i'm going to be in school at 10. great. and yes, thick makeups and that costume la. and now alot of people will be seeing it. luckily there's no need for buns. jieli, zhenzhi and cynthia. wtf. wtf. what a great weekend la huh.

i'm still obssessed with zac efron and high school musical! (:

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4/10/2006

4/10/2006 07:32:00 PM

today. well, nothing much. first was lit. somehow i'm looking forward to reading about anne's relationship with peter. but i'm too lazy to read it on my own. oh well. then was pe. i'm beginning to hate pe. so boring, and tiring please. today had to run eight rounds again. walao. thinking of pon-ing pe, but cynthia oh say what might get booked. wtf. i was scared la, obviously. so i went for pe. damn. even when there's no running, it's still boring. then after that was music. whoo. i love the aircon. then groups performed.. our group re-performed. i think it would be great if we ended on don't cha. but didn't dare, so. oh wells. haha. then after that was recess. then had mother tongue. our group presented. damn. i want to let ppl see the background for poem two la. so nice can. i'm so proud of myself. heh. but have to wait til next chinese period. so after that had maths. bored. oh the logo was great la pls. with the hair that i drew, it really looks like a bung. haha. suppose to look like dean, but someone told me it looks like sylvester. wtf. and some said the hair wasn't nice. fine. so after maths was science. then after science had to climb all the way up again to 4th floor. then maths again. walao cannot stand it alr, so sleepy. and boring. then after school had to stay back to do dnt that car. hais. don't wanna talk about it anymore. sian. hopefully tomorrow can finish. staying back tomorrow too. yeah, that's all. (:

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4/08/2006

4/08/2006 11:23:00 PM

today. early in the morning had to discuss for projects. then after that cynthia ask me whether want to go see dean, then okay lor. and i don't like dean, i still don't. so went to the kbox ceneleisure there. then walao. cynthia oh made me wait for like how long. i swear to god i'm nvr going to let myself wait for anybody from then on alr. like everytime is i wait can. so after that go up to eight floor then walao cannot. they say fully packed so cannot go. then poor us have to go down by the stairs from 6 floor to the 1st floor la. zhui xing zhui dao zhe me can. haha. then her mother so cute la. then after that went subway to eat first. then try again. then can go up alr. but then cannot go very in. then took pictures outside lor. what to do right. then after that finish alr went to see whether can see them exit from the doors. then got some bungs there also. not cute can. whatever la. then wait lao ban tian still nvr see anybody. only that kenneth. he so, haiya. i pity him la. he come out also nobody take picture or ask him sign. cynthia don't even recognise him can. hais. then yar, after that go do project. then went home. my daddy don't want come fetch me when he's at home watching tv. wth. humph. oh wells.

i desperately want to watch high school musical! ):

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4/07/2006

4/07/2006 06:53:00 PM

today is quite a bad day. first was maths. had a small quiz. then pe. as usual, we had to run. eight rounds in total. walao. damn tired. then mother tongue. had the open book test. i didn't finish reading the book la, only read til chapter 7. so did quite slow. then after that was recess. then bad things start to happen. i've decided to go to eat first and go to locker later cause i was starving. then i had to queue up for the food. then i totally forgot that i have to go locker. so i rushed to the locker before bell ring to take out the books. then after that i found out that jieli and mine's maths textbook and her chinese textbook is missing. i thought i took it to the canteen so we went to the canteen to find. then don't have. then it must be at the 4th floor toilet outside. bloody. then jieli cannot find her science textbook which is suppose to be in the locker. i was supposed to help her take out. then i never see so i nvr take out. then in the end ms lee say never bring once more textbook then will get booked. walao. pressure. cause i'm supposed to take out books for her during recess. hais. so.. after recess was science. then dnt. walao. cynthia oh nvr come. then i don't even know whether i've done correctly or what. kelvin cut off the acrylic alr. but like not nice la. i dunno la. then omg. i look so lang bei la. must do everything myself. then after that was science again. as usual, it's damn boring. all science lessons are boring la. then after that school ended. went to find whether the books are at the toilet there anot. so it was there. thank goodness. then after that went to eat. and went to the salvation army thing. zhu shen rapped in the bus. haha. then gets kind of boring later. then after all the person talking blah blah. we were dismissed. at 4.30. then kong rui wanted to pierce her ears, then zhenzhi, iris, zhu shen and me went to hougang mall. then after that found out that that shop don't have. then went to kfc. then after that cindy they all joined. then in the end kong rui say she want to go back to school first then go compass. bloody. waited for so long still haven't see her ears pierced. from last year until now keep saying. then went home cause i don't want to go compass. waited for the bus. bloody la. so long then come. pissed off. then after that got people come and ask for what donation thing. ask in the bus also. haha. then after that reached home. like finally. and finally i can sleep til tomorrow dunno what time. friday. i love fridays man. i'm tired la. lacking of sleep. so yar. that's all! (:

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4/06/2006

4/06/2006 06:49:00 PM

germaine, i've uploaded zac efron's picture for you to see! haha. cute right.

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so.. today had swim meet. st. helen lost again. and i
just realised something. st helen's people is only half to st emilie's. not fair la. haha. okay. nevermind. so we lost again. hais. but st. helen still rocks la. right. hais. so after swim meet went j8 with cao shuang or zhu shen la. then bought cynthia's birthday present. wah. alot of people's bithday lately. tomorrow still got someone birthday. i no money alr la. hais. don't feel like updating anymore.

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4/04/2006

4/04/2006 05:13:00 PM

ahh. my belt is super high now, all thanks to the councillor la. hais. so anyway, today. first was science. as usual, it's boring. then art. nothing to do cause she's not here, so talked. then recess. then english. forgot to take textbook out. so take from other classes one. luckily mrs koh nvr see. frankenstein story again. then after that geog. the ghost clip wasn't scary at all la. that girl from the back looked human. haha. mr foo demonstrated more scary. then after that was history. then assembly. wah, basically today's lessons were all boring. no mood to update alr. shall update some other time. (:

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4/01/2006

4/01/2006 05:17:00 PM

zac efron is so cute la! (:

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4/01/2006 03:39:00 PM

i feel like crying. i feel so worthless. just leave me alone in that small dark corner. i guess nobody would bother still. i tried but my results are still like shit. okay, i tried. i really did. but i still can't catch up with the rest. even if they didn't study much. i feel so stupid. i don't want to don't be in the top 40. i want to be good. i want to strive. but i can't. it's just too tiring. i cannot cope with it. i'm not some superwoman who can do everything like you guys did. it just seems so easy for you okay. but who would know that i tried? who. you will just think that it's a miracle if i tried. even when i did my best. you would say that the paper is easy when i got high marks. you just don't know me. not even my closest friends and family. take a look on the inside la. but i guess you'll never do that. yes, i'm used to it alr. but somehow i'm still carry that glimpse of hope. hoping that some miracle would happen. i need someone. just someone. to be there for me when i need it. but.. forget it lah.
some april fools it has been huh.

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